WOW where to start..the past, present and future are converging right now for me..for you ..for all of us..it is an exciting time to be alive..hard to believe that two years ago all of this started and has accelerated to where we are now in this story.
Yes Rudy started strongly suggesting that we needed to come to LA..I knew that this would be upsetting to Cindy but I had to say what he was pushing for..I knew in my heart that it was true...at that point Merlin, my Son was living in La Jolla, and had not yet moved to LA..(that would happen out of the blue in November of 2008 and I helped him find the house he now lives in..and is n0w moving from)...
I could picture being there I had gone to do work in California in the late 80's and during the 90's but never really liked it there...little did I know that years later there was a bigger plan unfolding that would have me enmeshed, embraced and loving LA...God does work in mysterious ways...
When I got the vision from Rudy about Italy and saw Cindy and Rudy and a baby it was overwhelming..I knew that it was not the last life that they had together but a life in another level..and perhaps a future life that they will have...it was clear that it was and is a healing level of something completing that didn't in their last incarnation together..this is how it works folks..WE ARE MULTIDIMENSIONAL BEINGS.."as above so below"...when Cindy then shared her dream from the night before I felt electrical sensations go through my whole being...
When I told her the date of October 18th and she shared that she and her husband were going to The Greenbrier, I again was shocked in a good way. This has been invaluable to me as a learning and growing experience..to have continuing sessions that time after time prove to be accurate is so empowering for me... I see thousands of people and get some feedback..but to have this as an ongoing , and now all the time happening is amazing.
Writing this hours before Rudy's transition 84 years ago to the day is eerie yet wonderful...I feel his presence like no other...I must share this last night I felt guided to open the door to the guest house that I am staying in..a bird fell out of the sky in front of me..I was afraid that it was dead and then it started to flap around..I was then worried that it was injured...in no time I realized that it was a baby bird and that it was learning how to fly. How did I know this, in July I saw a Male and Female Cardinal building a nest in my Wisteria that was growing in my Gazebo..then one day I saw one lone beak waiting to be fed, and then one night saw this giant baby bird outside the nest.
I looked on line and read about baby birds and it had said that if you find one on the ground leave it alone it is learning how to fly...sure enough for a few hours he flopped around then hopped and I went to sleep..I woke up and looked out and the baby was on the fence and sang to me and flew off...birds are messengers..it went from being an omen of death to a rebirth...two of the Daughters where I am staying came out and over came their fear of birds and witnessed this transition of the baby as he was learning to fly.
They had just lost their precious Grandmother in early July...who died at a young age and suddenly..that is another story..and I have been fortunate enough to be helping connect with her and the family in a remarkable, ongoing way..similar to how I connect with Rudy...so to have this amazing lesson repeating that THERE IS NO DEATH..ONLY LIFE AFTER LIFE...and to have the baby bird come as a messenger of this is so amazing...so much more to come...love to all..in a few hours I will be going to HOLLYWOOD FOREVER.CEMETERY to visit Rudy's crypt...
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
And On We Go
Tomorrow is August 23rd. It will be a difficult day for me. It shouldn’t be, and I know Marilene would scold me, (Rudy won’t be happy with me, either) but I will grieve nonetheless. On August 23rd, 1926, Rudolph Valentino drew his final mortal breath. He was just a little over 31 years old. Only his manager was with him when he crossed over at 12:10PM New York time.
But that was then…. It is time for us to go on.
My next session with Marilene was in September, 2008.
Begin tape........
“Rudy is showing me that we need to go to California. I see us in California just going different places and picking up vibrations. I think it would be very healing. It would bring something full circle.....Pause.... And, I know you don’t want to do it. That’s what he’s telling me.”
(I started laughing.) That’s an understatement! Every time I think about it, I just balk. (When I would think about it, I felt like a horse refusing a jump. It was like “yes, yes, yes. NO...skid” The thought of walking into that mausoleum was terrifying to me.)
“Which cemetery is he in?”
Hollywood Forever. I’m afraid it will trigger grief. I’m finally free of it. The last week or so, I’ve been almost euphoric.
“Your joy has come back into your life. You’re alive!”
I received a phone call from a friend I hadn’t talked to in quite a while. We hadn’t been talking long when all of a sudden she asked, “What is going on? You sound so different.” I am hearing that all the time..... I sound so different or I look so different.
“Rudy’s showing me something. When I see your energy field today, instead of it running in a linear fashion (Marilene moves her hand back and forth in a horizontal direction), I’m experiencing it as totally vertical. Everything is lining up in the dimensions. He is perfectly lined up with you.”
“You’ve had to go through the mourning that you went through but you couldn’t sustain it, because it was keeping him from getting through to you, and it was holding him back, too. You’re both now in a place where you can co-create together. He’s saying that by October 18th there will be this huge phase that’s going to begin”
(If you work with Marilene, even if you’ve known her for quite a while, there will still be times when she will absolutely knock you out of your shoes. This was one of those times.) (When I could finally speak.......) Don and I are arriving at the Greenbrier on October 18th. (My heart was pounding.)
“The hair is standing up on my arms. I love this! It’s not that I have doubts, but there are sometimes when Rudy will just drop these things to me and they are so accurate. That trip to the Greenbrier is important. Something very important is going to happen there.”
(I direct you back to the photos I showed you of the lounge on the Leviathan and the two of the Trellis Room at the Greenbrier, and the description of what happened to me when I walked into that room the first time. That took place on October 18th. I received another large piece of the puzzle.)
“Rudy is frustrated......he’s saying that there are many things he would have rather been known for than just being an actor. He’s saying, ‘it’s not like I didn’t appreciate what it brought with it, but I was so much more than an actor’.”
Most people have no idea what he was really like. He loved to tinker. Every time he got a new camera or car, he would take it apart to see how it worked, then put it back together again. He was a terrific mechanic. His taste and sense of style were impeccable. He was very proud of his collections of antiques including a large collection of swords and knives. He had a nice sized library. He read, spoke, and wrote at least four languages: Italian, English, French, Spanish, and he knew quite a bit of German. Many of the books in his library were written in French. He was so loving and kind. He loved to cook, and was quite good at it. (I just started shaking my head.)
(My dear Readers.....He was also a dedicated athlete and an expert horseman. No one could double him on a horse, and no one ever did. If you see his character riding a horse in a film, it is Rudy. In THE EAGLE, it is Rudy who leaps from horseback onto the runaway team to stop the carriage. Actually, the only time he was doubled in a film was in MORAN OF THE LADY LETTY. When the script called for a fight up in the ship’s rigging, Rudy wanted to do it, but the director and producer said absolutely not! As soon as the scene was shot, Rudy climbed the rigging, anyway. It is Rudy in THE SON OF THE SHEIK who dives off the second floor balcony, grabs the chandelier, swings and drops to the floor. He loved to box and one of his close friends was Jack Dempsey.
...and now from Rudy, himself: From an interview conducted in late 1925 by J.K. Winkler. “Heaven knows I’m no sheik! Look at this ‘sleek, black hair’. Getting a bit thin about the temples, isn’t it?.....I had to pose as a sheik for five years!.....A lot of perfumed ballyhooing was my own fault. I wanted to make a lot of money and so I let them play me up as a lounge lizard, a soft handsome devil whose only aim in life was to sit around and be admired by women. And all that time, I was a farmer at heart and still am......” The degree he earned in Italy was in “Agriculture”. Actually today it would be more like “Landscape Design”. Rudy loved the earth and growing things. He did most of the landscaping around Falcon Lair himself.)
(I now return to the session)
“This is the funniest thing. He keeps saying something to me about “How’s life in the vineyard?” Okay, I’ll ask her. Does that mean something?”
(Kaaaapoowww! Time to retrieve my shoes again!) Last night I had a dream. I was in a house, I don’t know where. I do know that it was surrounded by a vineyard. I was barefoot and carrying a baby boy, maybe 8 to 9 months old, on my hip. I walked out the door and there was Rudy on his knees digging in a flower bed. He was planting something. I remember carrying the baby over, and Rudy stood up grinning. He held out his hands, and I handed him the child. He raised him over his head, then cuddled him against his chest. The way he looked at me, Marilene! I was so happy I started to cry and woke myself up, damn it.
“Remember what I said about the waking and dreaming states? That seemed like a dream, but it was really happening in a different dimension.”..........End tape.
I will leave it to Marilene to try to explain that last statement, because I’m still not sure I understand it completely.
I continue to have the dream occasionally. It is more vivid each time I have it. I am to the point now, where I see the entire house. It’s old and built on a hillside. The kitchen is where I always start. Sometimes the baby is there, sometimes he’s outside with his father. The floor of the kitchen is flagstone and smooth from years of wear. I’m always barefoot and can feel the coolness of the stone. There is a large hearth at the end where the table and chairs are. The window over the sink looks out over the back yard and the vineyard. It’s open and a breeze blows in. The curtains are all handmade lace. They are old and a little yellowed from the sun. I am very happy and content.
I will drop a little teaser here. My next post will reveal the most dramatic occurrence I have experienced since this story began. It has to do with the gift of a red rose. So stay tuned.
THE TABLE
RETROGRADE MERCURY struck the blog..finally had a chance to write last night and my computer kept saying "server can't be found"..the planet Mercury goes "retrograde" about three times a year for about three weeks. It appears to be moving backward in the sky, Mercury rules communication...so more phones, computers etc. breakdown, get lost and so on. People Michael't hear each other and there is a lot confusion mentally.
Great time to meditate and go inward, difficult time in the outer world for communication. If you do anything legally check it and recheck it before you sign. Rudy liked the Esoteric aspect of Astrology so he said to explain this.
Ah yes, THE TABLE...Back in the Winter I was asked to meet with a couple of women who had written a ghost book that I did a couple of investigations and am written up in. They wanted me to connect with a woman who is part of The Boggstown Theatre in Boggstown, Indiana. This is a dinner theatre in the middle of now where..Boggstown has only a few houses even in it...
For Halloween I am going to be on stage doing readings for the audience...Julie, one of the owners of the theatre, became quite excited when she heard about Rudy communicating with and Katherine..much to my surprise she said that a man that is part of this tiny thearte...had a table that belonged to Rudy...I ALMOST FELL OVER...how could this be...it took us awhile longer to get to see the table, but indeed Rudy's table ( it is in photographs from Falcon Lair) is in a home in Greenwood, Indiana.
The owner is a wonderful man from LA that lives in Indiana now and his Grandparents bought the table from the estate somehow...they knew Rudy...it was such a rush and confirmation of this journey to see this table...and to see the framed poster with Rudy wearing what Katherine had seen in her memory in the colour she had seen it in...this was hanging over the table..the whole thing was surrealistic.
This is in a suburban setting where lots of people from India live...so we kept driving by women in beautiful Saris walking in this neighborhood while driving to this house...which if you know anything about Greenwood, was also so interesting...I love life and diversity...and the next day I was on my way to Bloomington , Indiana to spend the week with HH The Dalai Lama...who now lives in India...the syncronistic aspect of all of this is mind boggling...and my friends I am still in LA..now in a guest house the past few days in Beverly Hills...and as you will see in the next blog, I know, and you will know why I am still here...I am writing this on the 22nd of August..the 23rd is the big shift in Rudy's journey in his last physical body...it is the day he passed from this level to the next....keep reading love to all M
Great time to meditate and go inward, difficult time in the outer world for communication. If you do anything legally check it and recheck it before you sign. Rudy liked the Esoteric aspect of Astrology so he said to explain this.
Ah yes, THE TABLE...Back in the Winter I was asked to meet with a couple of women who had written a ghost book that I did a couple of investigations and am written up in. They wanted me to connect with a woman who is part of The Boggstown Theatre in Boggstown, Indiana. This is a dinner theatre in the middle of now where..Boggstown has only a few houses even in it...
For Halloween I am going to be on stage doing readings for the audience...Julie, one of the owners of the theatre, became quite excited when she heard about Rudy communicating with and Katherine..much to my surprise she said that a man that is part of this tiny thearte...had a table that belonged to Rudy...I ALMOST FELL OVER...how could this be...it took us awhile longer to get to see the table, but indeed Rudy's table ( it is in photographs from Falcon Lair) is in a home in Greenwood, Indiana.
The owner is a wonderful man from LA that lives in Indiana now and his Grandparents bought the table from the estate somehow...they knew Rudy...it was such a rush and confirmation of this journey to see this table...and to see the framed poster with Rudy wearing what Katherine had seen in her memory in the colour she had seen it in...this was hanging over the table..the whole thing was surrealistic.
This is in a suburban setting where lots of people from India live...so we kept driving by women in beautiful Saris walking in this neighborhood while driving to this house...which if you know anything about Greenwood, was also so interesting...I love life and diversity...and the next day I was on my way to Bloomington , Indiana to spend the week with HH The Dalai Lama...who now lives in India...the syncronistic aspect of all of this is mind boggling...and my friends I am still in LA..now in a guest house the past few days in Beverly Hills...and as you will see in the next blog, I know, and you will know why I am still here...I am writing this on the 22nd of August..the 23rd is the big shift in Rudy's journey in his last physical body...it is the day he passed from this level to the next....keep reading love to all M
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Orders From Marilene and Rudy
I just spoke to Marilene. She told me to post a photo of the table. So that's what I'm going to do. Here it is.
Here is one of the benches it went with.
The Table
Here we go again! A few days ago, I decided that my next post was going to be about the marble table that Marilene and I drove to Greenwood to see. We went to see it on May 10th. The table was purported to have been owned by Rudy and was part of the furnishings at Falcon Lair. The people who own it were very generous and gracious. They opened their home to us so that we could see it.
Now, I got up this morning and found that Marilene had posted on the blog, and what does she mention in her post? THE TABLE So obviously now would be a good time to tell you the story associated with it.
That morning as I was getting dressed, questions kept swirling in my mind. What will happen? What will I feel? Will I see nothing but a lovely old table, or will I see something that I recognize? Will it vibrate with Rudy's energy? Will it transport me back to those twelve days at Falcon Lair? I didn't know. I had absolutely no idea what would happen.
The one thing I did know was.....I had to carefully guard against seeing something that wasn't really there. In other words, I didn't want to sucker myself into believing something that wasn't true. (I fell into that trap once, but more on that as the story unfolds). Since this whole journey began that has been and continues to be my greatest fear, and it is what has provided the impetus to the hours of investigation and research I've done.
The table is beautiful. When I looked at it, I recognized it. It took me a couple of minutes to place it in the house, Falcon Lair, but I quickly remembered where it had been. I told them that it had been in the living room close to the fireplace. The base of the table is wrought iron and the top is marble. It sat near two wrought iron benches that were placed on either side of the fireplace. They created a nice arrangement.
After I got back home, I was able to find a couple of photos of the interior of Falcon Lair which showed the table and the benches. I emailed them to the couple who own the table. They were astonished.
Something else really interesting happened. Long ago, I told Marilene that when I watched the movie, THE SON OF THE SHEIK, I knew what the fabric of the robes Rudy wore in a couple of scenes felt like, and that the stripes in them were green. The memory of those robes is very vivid. I have other less vivid recollections of being on the set. One thing I do remember is how much I liked Vilma Banky. She was so sweet to me, and I have strong feelings of affection for her.
Back to the table.....Hanging over the it was an original theater poster for the film. There stood Rudy in the robes I had described to Marilene, and the stripes were green. I pointed out the poster to Marilene and asked, "Do you remember what I said?" She rolled her eyes and started laughing.
I will quote Marilene from that moment..."No one could make this stuff up! There is just too much of it, and it happens again and again!"
There comes a point when it is no longer possible to chalk things up to coincidence. Jung called it "synchronicity". I passed that point a long, long time ago.
AUGUST 19.2008 PART 2 BRACELET EXPLANATION
REALLY..YOU FOR SURE CAN'T MAKE THIS SH*T UP...this is the first time I have had a second to write again on the blog since Monday...and I am typing the title and realize that it IS AUGUST 19, 2010....WOW..trust me this was not planned...in Indiana and on my computer it is now 2:50am the 19th...here in Beverly Hills...it is 11:50pm the 18th going into the 19th in a few minutes...
OMG I just realized something else as I am writing this..and yes I am STILL HERE...LA has embraced me, Rudy has been hard at work...I was supposed to return home today....and the hotel..Sunset Towers Hotel in Hollywood, where I have been since the 5th, was sold out today so I had to leave....I have met the most wonderful people and they offered for me to move into their guest house in Beverly Hills..where I am at this moment writing this...guess where FALCON LAIR IS..RUDY'S HOME...you guessed it..Beverly Hills...
When Rudy discussed the bracelet with me I could feel it and see it..that is how I work as an Empath, I become a conduit for whatever is being conveyed..I could feel it on my wrist...I could see and feel it on his and the most amazing thing, I could see it on Katherine's wrist..that is how I knew that she had worn it those days she spent with her Beloved Rudy, before his fateful trip to NYC...and some how even in that moment I knew she would wear it again in this time.
I really thought for awhile that we would find it..you never know...I was so not surprised when her PI found it last in NY..at that time I was in NJ doing work with a family..I am now in LA doing work with a family..I still feel that it will pop up somewhere..the best part is that Katherine has the most amazing Husband...he had the bracelet copied for Katherine...wow...that is unconditional love actualized...
Most men would be very jealous of a lover from another time and place who currently is in touch with their wife in this life from Spirit...not Katherine's husband...and he doesn't think she or this is crazy...what a guy. Rudy is commenting here and says that this is because on a higher level this is being orchestrated as a healing for everyone. When the High Self of ourselves is what is at work, petty jealousy and negativity fall away..hence the bracelet recreated and given with unconditional love.
I love the photos of the two bracelets..Rudy does as well...I have a feeling that some Rudy items are here in LA waiting to be discovered....hummm...please stay tuned in one and all and please feel free to ask us questions and make comments...we know where a table of his ended up..and Katherine and I saw it...in Greenwood, Indiana..that is another blog story...you can't make this sh*t up for sure!!!!!
OMG I just realized something else as I am writing this..and yes I am STILL HERE...LA has embraced me, Rudy has been hard at work...I was supposed to return home today....and the hotel..Sunset Towers Hotel in Hollywood, where I have been since the 5th, was sold out today so I had to leave....I have met the most wonderful people and they offered for me to move into their guest house in Beverly Hills..where I am at this moment writing this...guess where FALCON LAIR IS..RUDY'S HOME...you guessed it..Beverly Hills...
When Rudy discussed the bracelet with me I could feel it and see it..that is how I work as an Empath, I become a conduit for whatever is being conveyed..I could feel it on my wrist...I could see and feel it on his and the most amazing thing, I could see it on Katherine's wrist..that is how I knew that she had worn it those days she spent with her Beloved Rudy, before his fateful trip to NYC...and some how even in that moment I knew she would wear it again in this time.
I really thought for awhile that we would find it..you never know...I was so not surprised when her PI found it last in NY..at that time I was in NJ doing work with a family..I am now in LA doing work with a family..I still feel that it will pop up somewhere..the best part is that Katherine has the most amazing Husband...he had the bracelet copied for Katherine...wow...that is unconditional love actualized...
Most men would be very jealous of a lover from another time and place who currently is in touch with their wife in this life from Spirit...not Katherine's husband...and he doesn't think she or this is crazy...what a guy. Rudy is commenting here and says that this is because on a higher level this is being orchestrated as a healing for everyone. When the High Self of ourselves is what is at work, petty jealousy and negativity fall away..hence the bracelet recreated and given with unconditional love.
I love the photos of the two bracelets..Rudy does as well...I have a feeling that some Rudy items are here in LA waiting to be discovered....hummm...please stay tuned in one and all and please feel free to ask us questions and make comments...we know where a table of his ended up..and Katherine and I saw it...in Greenwood, Indiana..that is another blog story...you can't make this sh*t up for sure!!!!!
Monday, August 16, 2010
August 19, 2008, Part 2 The Bracelet Explanation
It's important to understand that not all new pieces of knowledge or insight arrive with the blare of trumpets, or lightening and a crack of thunder. Most times they slip in quietly. They surprise you, or as you become aware can produce a sense of relief.....like letting out a breath you've been holding. This is going to sound so trite, but it is really true. It is a process, sometimes very slow, but a process of enlightenment.
Begin tape.......
"This is interesting. He's trying to show me something about the bracelet. He's saying, 'do you remember?' He's so funny."
All I know is that he wore it enough that when he wasn't wearing it a pale impression was still on his wrist because of his tan. He tanned so easily. He might as well have had the damn thing on.
"I just don't get why they called it a slave bracelet."
I Michael't know. Other men were wearing bracelets, but only Rudy got flayed alive for it in the press. It probably had something to do with his second wife and her personality. Rudy's manager seemed to look at it like a collar and leash. I think Rudy simply liked it. It was a very attractive bracelet.
"I think so too. That's what he's telling me. He just liked the bracelet. He's going, 'you Americans read too much into everything'. He's saying that there's another reason for you to be so drawn to the bracelet. There is something else about it. Did he let you put the bracelet on?(...pause.....Marilene looks directly at me with a smile on her face.) You had the bracelet on during those days."
(My stomach flopped over as my jaw hit the floor) Oh, my God, Marilene. (The light turned on!)
"I'm getting cold chills. That's it. That's it. That's absolutely it! Ooo, I love this. I love how this works, how spirits choose to reveal information. Isn't it exciting?"
I'm covered in goose bumps.
"I'm am just like buzzed from the tips of my toes to the top of my head. No shadow of a doubt. That's so fascinating. He gave you the bracelet."
And of course, there was no way I could have taken it with me or worn it outside of the house, it was too well known. Someone would have been sure to recognize it. I had to leave it there when I left. That's why he didn't take it with him to New York! Why he left it at Falcon Lair. It was mine. (I have to admit, I started crying.) I know that I was supposed to go through all this, but it’s so hard sometimes. You said it would be like a tsunami. You weren't kidding.
"Absolutely, it is. It is overwhelming. And here we are........End tape.
You know, for someone who, up until June 17th 2008, did not believe in spirits, past lives, or psychics, I was having to radically readjust my way of thinking about things and my perception of life as I knew it. It was, at the best of times, difficult, and at the worst of times, shattering and emotionally painful. Mental arguments went something like this….. “Oh, you idiot, this couldn’t possibly be true……..Oh, yeah? Explain it, then smartass. How could it not be true?” Just this last Thursday, I had lunch with a good friend of mine, a journalist, who had started reading the blog. She was curious about it and very skeptical. She stared at me across the lunch table and said, “I believe it! Look, I don’t care how imaginative you are, there is no way you could make all this sh*t up!” Marilene has used those exact words several times.
Let me finish the bracelet story. Mike, my PI in LA, finally tracked the bracelet to a jewelry store in New York in 1935, then it simply disappeared. He tried every avenue he could think of. There was nothing more. We both know the bracelet is out there somewhere, but I guess it must remain hidden.
However, there is a bracelet. It is on my wrist as I type. It is an exact duplicate of the original. How could this be? My darling husband took pictures of the bracelet to a jeweler and had it copied! Mine is white gold, platinum was out of the question! He gave it to me on Christmas Day 2008. Of course when I look at it, I am reminded of Rudy, but I treasure it because of the steadfast love it represents to me. (okay, okay Rudy, I’ll say it.) “My wonderful husband, the beloved father of our two daughters, ‘the butter for my burn.’”
Here is Rudy wearing the bracelet:
Here is mine:
AUGUST 19.2008 PART I
AXIS MUNDI the point where Heaven and Earth meet...seems to be where I call home...interesting place to be..most people may visit there..it is my dwelling place. This trip to Hollywood has really proven to be evidence of that for me...Rudy everywhere and he is opening doors like no other..night and day the gates are open and I am feeling embraced by Hollywood..shunned it before...have been coming here since the late 80's to speak and to work...why now is it calling me???
It is embracing me, and is a culminating of many lifetimes and connections to the point that it is perfect and overwhelming at the same time, the wonderful people and families that I am meeting I feel an immediate love and connection with...I am so able to stay in PRESENT TIME HERE..where past, present and future happen all at the same time...and I keep staying..is Rudy keeping me here...I noticed the dates here I am again almost to the date two years ago of what Katherine is writing about.
I remember that session as if it were yesterday...as you know from the blog Katherine researches...so when I started to get dates and seasons and details..I wasn't nervous but I thought..good..we will find out how real all of this is..it may come as a surprise to some of you, but I do have a healthy skepticism...and seek truth and balance in my life and work. Many psychics do not....they are defenders of what they speak as the God's truth and do not care to be challenged...again Katherine you have helped me so much with your research...
When she verified that ship dates and that he was not in LA it explained a lot...the energy that he was giving me during that session was amazing he was remembering and bringing it into Present time as well for himself and all of us.
BALANCE...the regrets, the hanging onto the past and what could, should, would have been is a waste of time....please be here now this is for all of us...Rudy was and is again speaking about this...learn from the past and what Katherine has experienced she has blended in this life...not having children in the last one...she has a loving husband and two lovey Daughters...a completing with this group of Souls from another time and place..and a healing for what did not come into fruition in the last one.
The Trellis Room at the Greenbrier and the Winter Garden on The Leviathan are so similar that it is amazing..again it is how all of this works, all of the pieces of the puzzle are always there...look for it in your own paths synchronicity.....Jung wrote a book by that name ...to me it means you are in the flow..the Dharma is manifesting and you are in the right place at the right time for things to happen.
Reach for the stars Rudy just said to me and told me to write that as well...the healing that is happening here is also involving people from the Other side communicating with me in a similar to Rudy..except this time it is a woman who just recently crossed and it involves her and her family it is most extradinary...I am honored to be in this process with her...Rudy is so excited about it as well...a new level of what my true work with groups and bridging Heaven and Earth seems to be all about....sending love and healing to all and what a journey this is..life is good treasure every moment...
It is embracing me, and is a culminating of many lifetimes and connections to the point that it is perfect and overwhelming at the same time, the wonderful people and families that I am meeting I feel an immediate love and connection with...I am so able to stay in PRESENT TIME HERE..where past, present and future happen all at the same time...and I keep staying..is Rudy keeping me here...I noticed the dates here I am again almost to the date two years ago of what Katherine is writing about.
I remember that session as if it were yesterday...as you know from the blog Katherine researches...so when I started to get dates and seasons and details..I wasn't nervous but I thought..good..we will find out how real all of this is..it may come as a surprise to some of you, but I do have a healthy skepticism...and seek truth and balance in my life and work. Many psychics do not....they are defenders of what they speak as the God's truth and do not care to be challenged...again Katherine you have helped me so much with your research...
When she verified that ship dates and that he was not in LA it explained a lot...the energy that he was giving me during that session was amazing he was remembering and bringing it into Present time as well for himself and all of us.
BALANCE...the regrets, the hanging onto the past and what could, should, would have been is a waste of time....please be here now this is for all of us...Rudy was and is again speaking about this...learn from the past and what Katherine has experienced she has blended in this life...not having children in the last one...she has a loving husband and two lovey Daughters...a completing with this group of Souls from another time and place..and a healing for what did not come into fruition in the last one.
The Trellis Room at the Greenbrier and the Winter Garden on The Leviathan are so similar that it is amazing..again it is how all of this works, all of the pieces of the puzzle are always there...look for it in your own paths synchronicity.....Jung wrote a book by that name ...to me it means you are in the flow..the Dharma is manifesting and you are in the right place at the right time for things to happen.
Reach for the stars Rudy just said to me and told me to write that as well...the healing that is happening here is also involving people from the Other side communicating with me in a similar to Rudy..except this time it is a woman who just recently crossed and it involves her and her family it is most extradinary...I am honored to be in this process with her...Rudy is so excited about it as well...a new level of what my true work with groups and bridging Heaven and Earth seems to be all about....sending love and healing to all and what a journey this is..life is good treasure every moment...
Friday, August 13, 2010
August 19, 2008, Part 1
Marilene was going to be out of town on August 23rd, the anniversary of Rudy’s death. I was dreading it. I had no idea what was going to happen. How was I going to react? Things were getting better. I felt Rudy much closer to me, but the attachment to the past with its attending grief and sorrow was still with me.
I had a session with Marilene right before she left. We saw each other on August 19th.
Begin tape.............
Well, I made it through the anniversary of my dad’s death on the 15th.
“When was that?”
1985. He dropped dead on the kitchen floor. August 15th......the exact day in 1926 that Rudy collapsed in his hotel room. Jesus. (Marilene didn’t say anything, she just let me continue.) Rudy is coming to me in my dreams and meditations, but I’m not able to have a dialog with him, not the way you can. I need to tell him something and then I need you to tell me what he’s saying.
“Okay.”
(It took a minute for me to buck up the courage.) Friday morning, the 15th, at one thirty am you collapsed. Today will be your last decent day. Tomorrow you will awaken in excruciating pain and at ten minutes after noon on Saturday, the 23rd, you’ll be dead. I want you back.....I want those days back. It’s so unfair. Why did you just ignore what was going on in your body? Why did you ignore it until it was too late?
“He’s saying ‘I’m so sorry. I understand now, and you have to understand that I was born old’. He keeps saying this, ‘I was born old. I had a lot to do in this life, and the saddest thing for me was that I didn’t do the things I should have done well. I wasted my time on the wrong women, I wasted my time on the wrong fears and the wrong pursuits.’ His heart breaks for you. He says ‘That is the saddest thing, my dear, I was old and you were young. I was so much older than you even knew and had such little time left. We are star-crossed loves from way back. It’s not an accident that we met in that life.’”
“Okay, a tall angelic presence is saying to me, ‘This will happen in another life. The important thing for both of you now is to understand, look at the mistakes, look at the lessons, look at the good things, be where you are now. It’s important for him to be healing in spirit, and it’s very important for you to be in your life that you have created with your husband and your children. But there will be a time coming when you will be together in the right way.’”
“He (the angelic presence) says to me to tell you that you spent time with Rudy long before you became aware of him. And it’s in this higher astral realm that you remain together. But he doesn’t want you to try to escape into this. That’s what they are concerned about. You have to find balance. There is this other plane of existence that you have dwelt in for a long time, many lifetimes. This higher astral realm where you freely come and go, you have a conscious connection with Rudy, but also with lots of things. I would call it the Axis Mundi, it’s the point where heaven and earth meet. The Axis Mundi.”
“Don’t dwell on what could have been or should have been, because it will be. It’s ordained. It is already, you just haven’t reached it in linear time.”
“Now Rudy’s saying that he had a lot to work through as spirit. He keeps going back to this. Why he attracted what he did to himself in regard to women. The bad women, the wrong women, why he wasted so much time. He’s had to come to terms with that. That’s interesting. It had to be very disturbing to have met you near the end of his life. He’s also had to come to terms with why there were no children.”
He wanted children so badly.
“He’s saying it would have been disastrous to have children with those women. It wasn’t the right timing for it. He’s saying that the right timing when you both are together, at the same age, that life will be. I’ve never seen anything like this. There is no doubt that that’s what will happen.”
(I’m trying to digest everything she’s said. It will take some time and several reviews of the tape to come close to understanding it.)
“Do you have a sense in linear time of other meetings with him before the days (June 11-23) in 1926?”
Not really. I know you said our first meeting was Feb. 24th 1925. What actually led up to those 12 days in June, I don’t know. I keep hoping I’ll get a sense of something.
“I keep seeing something in the cold. Something happened in the winter before the summer. Okay, I’m getting lots of information. It was the winter solstice....Christmas 1925. Something started the ball rolling. Then I see a break. We’re jumping to January 23rd. Something in that time frame. We jump from that solstice to Jan 23rd. Whatever happened in the summer didn’t just happen. It started in the winter.”
That would have been right after his divorce.
“Apparently something had been building up during the winter. I see snow and cold.”......... End tape.
Okay, folks, this is where I thought Marilene had slipped a cog. Snow and cold around Christmas in LA? Come on! But she had given me more concrete information: weather and a couple of dates. It was time to start digging.
First, I had to debunk the snowy and cold Christmas. I started researching. It didn’t take too long to find out that Rudy was NOT in LA over Christmas 1925. He was in London! Now, I just had to find out what the weather was like at that time. It took a little more searching on a couple of UK sites, and I found it. Christmas 1925 in London was a very cold one, and they had snow!!
All right. I had that date and weather behind me. So what could be the significance of the 23rd of January? This required a couple of phone calls to the research desk at the Library of Congress. Could they find any reference to Rudolph Valentino close to that date?
It took a couple of days, but they came through for me. I was emailed a copy of the front page of a newspaper, “The Middlesboro Daily News” Tuesday, January 19, 1926. There was an article titled, “Sheik Divorced!” It seems that Rudy was informed by a reporter that his divorce decree had been finalized in Paris. The reporter told him this bit of news as Rudy was boarding the United States Line ship, The Leviathan, at the port of Southampton. The ship was bound for New York. Rudy’s comment was “I cross the Atlantic a free man.” The ship was due to arrive in New York on the 27th of January, 1926. The 23rd was smack in the middle of that sailing. Later I received a copy of an article from the New York Times confirming that he was due to arrive on the Leviathan on the 27th of January, 1926.
Please bear with me here. I’m going to jump ahead for a moment. In June 2009, my husband and I took a vacation to the Greenbrier Hotel in West Virginia. It was our first stay at the hotel. After we checked in, we strolled around looking at the beauty and magnificence of the hotel. We walked into a particular lounge, and something strange happened. I got very dizzy and disoriented. My vision was like someone was switching rapidly back and forth between two slides, almost with a strobe effect. I grabbed on to my husband and had to sit down. Something about that room triggered it. It was very, very familiar.
It was only after we’d gotten home that I was finally able to get my hands on a complete brochure for The Leviathan. (That required a good piece of digging!) I looked through the brochure and was stunned! I waited for my husband to get home, and I asked him to open the brochure to the page I’d marked and tell me what he saw. He did and coolly answered. “I see the Trellis Room at the Greenbrier.” I couldn't get over the feeling that I was on that ship, too.
Here are photos of both the Trellis Room at the Greenbrier, and a photo taken from the brochure on The Leviathan. Look closely at the floors of both rooms as well as the trellises.
Trellis Room at the Greenbrier:
The Winter Garden on The Leviathan
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Needed Clarification....and some Fun
Gentle Readers,
Rudy is disturbed about something. I need to get an explanation in here very quickly.
We want to make it abundantly clear that neither Rudy, Marilene, nor myself are anti-gay. We have very strong beliefs and opinions, but that is not a topic for this blog. Rudy's desire is for the truth about him to be known, just as anyone would want people to know the truth as opposed to lies and misrepresentations. Please, we don't want anyone to be hurt! Rudy knows all too well what that feels like!
As another example, it has been widely said that Rudy would never have made the transition to sound films, not because of his accent, but because he had a high, squeaky voice. ( I'm sorry, I'm laughing.) That is too funny. Rudy had a lovely speaking voice. (He knows where I'm going with this and he's laughing.) He made a record back in 1923. He recorded two songs, "The Kashmiri Love Song" used in THE SHEIK and "El Relicario" used in BLOOD AND SAND. The pressing was very small, they were made mainly for friends. After Rudy heard the playbacks he said, "Well, there goes my opera career."
I have a copy of the original record, and also have the songs on my iPod. (Which tickles him....he's on and iPod) His singing is passable, I'll give him that. (I have been a singer myself. My final performance was at my niece's wedding where I sang "The Lord's Prayer". Everyone loved it, but me. So, I hung up my spurs, so to speak.) Anyway, these recordings are the only existing examples of Rudy's voice. There are no recordings of him speaking. I'll figure out some way to let you hear him. His voice is a low tenor, and since most people sing in a higher register than they speak, you can judge for yourselves.
Well, this has turned out to be longer than I expected......and fun! Let's keep the lighter tone going with this post. I also want you to see Rudy without the hair gel he used in order to get that "patent leather hair" look. (I didn't make that up. That's what the the style was called.) You'll see why he needed to use plaster. heheheheh I've always told him I liked him better with his hair natural.
I know......We'll take a poll!! Natural or sleek?
(okay, the only photo I could get my hands on where Rudy's hair is natural is taken from a film. Rudy is not only dressed in a period costume, but he also has a mustache and goatee.) No matter, the subject is his hair. So, here they are. Make your choice.
Natural hair:
Sleek hair:
Well, that's all from me today. I'll continue with the story tomorrow, I promise. (Don't forget to vote.)
VALENTINO
VALENTINO....His name says it all....Katherine and friends where do I begin...he has been keeping me company on this trip...I always know when he is in "the Main" of energy with me...heat pours through and around me. I am sweating as I am conveying this. I wanted to say writing, but that is just the mechanical act...much of this is actually being dictated to me from guess who???
I am a conduit for healing and this is an amazing journey of healing for me, Katherine and Rudy...the joy and vindication that he is experiencing is overwhelming..your last blog, the tribute to him, touches him deeply. The outrage that he experienced in his life...and "after (this) life" on the subject of him being a homosexual, there are no words for....he has waited a lifetime to have the record set straight, so to speak..(he is really funny)...he is also saying to me that there will still be some who will refuse to believe the truth of him loving women..and not men, in that way.
The elegance and grace of Rudy are what amaze me...he is gentle and kind and shares my love for animals..he has appeared many times on this trip with his dogs that he loves so dearly...he knows how much I am missing my animals...eight cats and three dogs...he has even been amusing me by showing up on a horse in the Sunset Towers Hotel...just wish everyone else could see what I see..he wants to go by the stables (or where they were) when he lived at Falcon Lair. There is a photo in the video that Katherine made of that beautiful home..
There is so much that I want to share that I do not know where to begin but here is a tidbit when my son Merlin moved to Hollywood in the Fall of 2008, little did I know what was in store for me here. A friend that I have known since 1976, first met her in of all places my hometown of Connersville, Indiana, and met her through someone that I have known since we were 3 years old..now spends most of her time in LA. When I first met Whitney she lived in NYC..that is another blog..so when I started to come out here to see my son I mentioned to Whitney that an amazing thing was happening in and around Rudolph Valentino..this was February of 2009, she very casually mentioned that a renowned dancer friend of hers, who is now in his 80's had lived at Valentino's home in the 60's when Doris Duke owned the property.
I was and still am stunned...how could this be??? My life is like this all the time but this blew my mind...wait til you read more later ...and just a hint Katherine does come out here and we do meet Robert, the man that lived at Falcon's Lair and yes we did have an adventure going you can guess where...that is in the future blogs...just enough here to get you curious...even on this current trip it just does not stop the connections with Rudy and people who know a great deal about him..and who knew people that he knew...this has come up in a reading I did with a wonderful writer here that I did a reading for yesterday...more on that later as well.
Rudy has been hard at work here opening many doors and orchestrating miracles...I was supposed to be returning home...
I am a conduit for healing and this is an amazing journey of healing for me, Katherine and Rudy...the joy and vindication that he is experiencing is overwhelming..your last blog, the tribute to him, touches him deeply. The outrage that he experienced in his life...and "after (this) life" on the subject of him being a homosexual, there are no words for....he has waited a lifetime to have the record set straight, so to speak..(he is really funny)...he is also saying to me that there will still be some who will refuse to believe the truth of him loving women..and not men, in that way.
The elegance and grace of Rudy are what amaze me...he is gentle and kind and shares my love for animals..he has appeared many times on this trip with his dogs that he loves so dearly...he knows how much I am missing my animals...eight cats and three dogs...he has even been amusing me by showing up on a horse in the Sunset Towers Hotel...just wish everyone else could see what I see..he wants to go by the stables (or where they were) when he lived at Falcon Lair. There is a photo in the video that Katherine made of that beautiful home..
There is so much that I want to share that I do not know where to begin but here is a tidbit when my son Merlin moved to Hollywood in the Fall of 2008, little did I know what was in store for me here. A friend that I have known since 1976, first met her in of all places my hometown of Connersville, Indiana, and met her through someone that I have known since we were 3 years old..now spends most of her time in LA. When I first met Whitney she lived in NYC..that is another blog..so when I started to come out here to see my son I mentioned to Whitney that an amazing thing was happening in and around Rudolph Valentino..this was February of 2009, she very casually mentioned that a renowned dancer friend of hers, who is now in his 80's had lived at Valentino's home in the 60's when Doris Duke owned the property.
I was and still am stunned...how could this be??? My life is like this all the time but this blew my mind...wait til you read more later ...and just a hint Katherine does come out here and we do meet Robert, the man that lived at Falcon's Lair and yes we did have an adventure going you can guess where...that is in the future blogs...just enough here to get you curious...even on this current trip it just does not stop the connections with Rudy and people who know a great deal about him..and who knew people that he knew...this has come up in a reading I did with a wonderful writer here that I did a reading for yesterday...more on that later as well.
Rudy has been hard at work here opening many doors and orchestrating miracles...I was supposed to be returning home...
(I got an S.O.S. from Marilene. The battery on her computer went. So I am going to post this for her. She was supposed to return to Indianapolis on Friday, however it is my hope and belief that she will be staying in LA a few days longer than that. She'll have much more to tell....Katherine)
Monday, August 9, 2010
Valentino
I had every intention of using the next session I had with Marilene as the basis for this post, but I need to do something else. When I read Marilene’s post from LA this morning, it activated something. That synapse in my head fired. (I explained in an earlier post about how I seem to think with two brains.) I am in that place right now, and so it is right now that I want to tell you about Rudy. I want you to see him through "our" eyes.
There isn’t much to say about his physical appearance. He was extraordinarily handsome, and he had a beautiful body. He was a disciplined athlete and exercised regularly to keep himself in the best shape he could. It’s ironic, somehow, that he was so careful to maintain his physique, and yet, he pointedly ignored the escalating abdominal pain that was telling him something was very wrong in his stomach. He just kept taking more sodium bicarbonate until in New York his ulcer ruptured and he collapsed.
He was tender, sensitive, gentle, compassionate and loving. He was physically demonstrative. He liked physical contact, even if it were just a touch. He was always very considerate and empathetic. (One little intimate detail....Rudy’s skin was very warm. He radiated a lot of heat.) He was extremely intelligent and was a little on the serious side. He wasn’t a big laugher. He smiled quite a bit, but when he did laugh, it lit him up from within. You couldn’t help but smile.
When Rudy spoke to you, his whole attention would be focused on you, making you feel as if you were the only other person in the room. I know this is what women responded to when they watched his films. Rudy was never shy in front of the camera. Because he could focus his attention, he forgot about it and was never self-conscious. When he had a love scene, he wasn’t acting. What you saw was genuinely Rudy.
He could never come to grips with the viciousness and malevolence of the attacks against him in the press, always written by men. Why did they have to attack his masculinity, his manhood? Why did they hate him so much? He would try to act nonchalant about them, but each one wounded him. The last was the worst. He read it on the train heading for New York in August 1926. That bastard in Chicago wrote a vile and vicious piece, basically calling him a pink powder puff. It crushed him.
I suppose now is as good a time as any to address the topic of Rudy’s sexuality. There are still questions and innuendo about him. As far as I know, Rudy was a heterosexual. He loved women. You will read all kinds of things about him. I even read where one idiot swore that he had affairs with Gary Cooper and John Wayne! Now that is too ridiculous for words, but it’s typical.
Rudy was a contradiction. He could seem so self assured, so worldly, but there was a little boy lost quality to him, too.
I found a couple of interesting quotes from very famous men concerning Rudy. I think they are very telling.
“Rudy is a nice fellow and I like him personally. But it’s been this silly stuff that has been printed about him through no fault of his own that has made it darn tough sledding for even him at times.” Will Rogers, 1925
“He wore his success gracefully, appearing almost subdued by it. He was intelligent, quiet and without vanity, and had great allure for women, but had little success with them, and those whom he married treated him rather shabbily.....No man had greater attraction for women than Valentino; no man was more deceived by them.” Charles Chaplin, 1964
Watch his films......not THE SHEIK! It is one of his worst performances. The direction he was given was atrocious. Watch him in THE FOUR HORSEMEN, or in BLOOD AND SAND, THE EAGLE, or in THE SON OF THE SHEIK. Just watch him.
This is a very short video clip I put together. The music in the video is very important to Rudy and me. When we were together in June 1926, I introduced him to a very special piece of music, Rimsky-Korsakov’s “The Song of India”. When I handed him the recording I told him then that the music was him. I still think so.
This is a very short video clip I put together. The music in the video is very important to Rudy and me. When we were together in June 1926, I introduced him to a very special piece of music, Rimsky-Korsakov’s “The Song of India”. When I handed him the recording I told him then that the music was him. I still think so.
I want Rudy to have the last word.
This is his poem, You, taken from his book of poems, DAYDREAMS, 1923.
You are the History of Love and its Justification.
The Symbol of Devotion.
The Blessedness of Womanhood.
The Incentive of Chivalry.
The Reality of Ideals.
The Verity of Joy.
Idolatry’s Defense.
The Proof of Goodness
The Power of Gentleness.
Beauty’s Acknowledgment.
Vanity’s Excuse.
The Promise of Truth.
The Melody of Life.
The Caress of Romance.
The Dream of Desire.
The Symphony of Understanding.
My Heart’s Home.
The Proof of Faith.
Sanctuary of my Soul.
My Belief of Heaven.
Eternity of all Happiness.
My Prayers.
You.
In an interview right after his divorce from his second wife he said, “Women do not fall in love with me. I fall in love with them. I do not think one woman in my life ever loved me sincerely, deeply. I think it is because I make the mistake of falling so deeply in love with them. When I have heard myself referred to as a ‘great lover’ I have often thought to myself, ‘The great lover—loved by all, but his loves’.”
(He was wrong about one thing. There was a woman who loved him sincerely, deeply....but fate intervened, and she never had a real chance to show him.)
PRESENT IN THE MOMENT
PRESENT IN THE MOMENT IS THE ONLY PLACE TO BE...linear time is man made and an illusion. Present Time is where past, present future happen all at one time. Learning through the wheel of karmic repetition is what linear time perception is. It is like being on a merry-go-round, for awhile it is fun and exciting and because some of the horses go up and down you think you are going somewhere. Pretty soon the scenery gets boring as hell...Karma, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction...
DHARMA is when you grab the brass ring and pull yourself out of the wheel and you land , stationary , in the middle of the wheel..you are no longer along for the ride the wheel keeps on turning but you are now in the middle...it is when mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically you are PRESENT..all of the bodies are connected and in the moment...this is when miracles can occur....you no longer walk away and think I wish I would have said this, or done that...when you are Present you complete that moment with no need to repeat it.
One of the best movies ever made that explores this is the movie "Groundhog Day"..it didn't matter what he did, until he got the lesson he would wake up and it was a variation of the same lesson...this is what your life is like...look back from the time you were born, also look at family patterns that seem to repeat over and over again.
That is the beauty of the transformation of Katherine...out of the unfinished emotions that were affecting her present life...into understanding and healing the past..but now dwelling there. Bringing it into her present wonderful family and life and integrating it all....I will tell you what I saw ....within weeks she looked 15 years younger, she lost weight (not that she was over weight) a youthful glow surrounded her. Gone was the heavy, depressed dark cloud that had followed her around in this life.
I had been worried for awhile because it took her awhile to mourn the past and Rudy's death...and her past identity...it was such a sad and tragic story, that had not had a proper closure...as good as she looks now and did even then..when she was stuck in the past she looked drained and full of despair...like she quotes in the blog I finally said to her (I am a very blunt reader when I have to be) "Katherine, you've got to realize that the past that you are so desperately trying to hang onto is DEATH, IT'S OVER, LET IT GO.
It is a message to all BE HERE NOW...dwelling in the past mistakes, sorrows, regrets, grief, shame and fear will kill you...forgiving yourself and others and ACTUALIZING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND TRUTH WILL HEAL AND IS THE KEY TO LIFE...
Being here in Hollywood as I write this Rudy of course is so happy....I have had tremendous breakthroughs with healing the past and being present in the few days that I have been here...miracle after miracle...and why because I am CHOOSING TO BE PRESENT..we must use our FREE WILL..and Co-create with Spirit...what an exciting time to be alive...
Take a look at The Sunset Towers Hotel..that is where I am writing this from...home to Marilyn Monroe, Clark Gable, Carol Lombard, John Wayne, Greta Garbo just to name a few...a magical place built in 1929....check it out....more later love to all MM
DHARMA is when you grab the brass ring and pull yourself out of the wheel and you land , stationary , in the middle of the wheel..you are no longer along for the ride the wheel keeps on turning but you are now in the middle...it is when mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically you are PRESENT..all of the bodies are connected and in the moment...this is when miracles can occur....you no longer walk away and think I wish I would have said this, or done that...when you are Present you complete that moment with no need to repeat it.
One of the best movies ever made that explores this is the movie "Groundhog Day"..it didn't matter what he did, until he got the lesson he would wake up and it was a variation of the same lesson...this is what your life is like...look back from the time you were born, also look at family patterns that seem to repeat over and over again.
That is the beauty of the transformation of Katherine...out of the unfinished emotions that were affecting her present life...into understanding and healing the past..but now dwelling there. Bringing it into her present wonderful family and life and integrating it all....I will tell you what I saw ....within weeks she looked 15 years younger, she lost weight (not that she was over weight) a youthful glow surrounded her. Gone was the heavy, depressed dark cloud that had followed her around in this life.
I had been worried for awhile because it took her awhile to mourn the past and Rudy's death...and her past identity...it was such a sad and tragic story, that had not had a proper closure...as good as she looks now and did even then..when she was stuck in the past she looked drained and full of despair...like she quotes in the blog I finally said to her (I am a very blunt reader when I have to be) "Katherine, you've got to realize that the past that you are so desperately trying to hang onto is DEATH, IT'S OVER, LET IT GO.
It is a message to all BE HERE NOW...dwelling in the past mistakes, sorrows, regrets, grief, shame and fear will kill you...forgiving yourself and others and ACTUALIZING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND TRUTH WILL HEAL AND IS THE KEY TO LIFE...
Being here in Hollywood as I write this Rudy of course is so happy....I have had tremendous breakthroughs with healing the past and being present in the few days that I have been here...miracle after miracle...and why because I am CHOOSING TO BE PRESENT..we must use our FREE WILL..and Co-create with Spirit...what an exciting time to be alive...
Take a look at The Sunset Towers Hotel..that is where I am writing this from...home to Marilyn Monroe, Clark Gable, Carol Lombard, John Wayne, Greta Garbo just to name a few...a magical place built in 1929....check it out....more later love to all MM
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Present In The Moment
“The key thing to work on is being as present as you can be and be right in the moment......You have to be in your life and present, and then he can be aligned with you and you’re going to have very strong communication with him.”
This is a perfect quote from Marilene to begin this post. I will get back to the unfolding story. But, I want to speak about the here and now. Michael’t worry, I’m not going to give away the ending, simply because there is no ending to this story. That’s the wonder and the beauty of it. It will never end. The blog will end, but the story goes on. If you look at my Facebook page, I have a quote: “Somewhere in time.......the end is the beginning.” It is the cornerstone of my beliefs.
So, where am I? I am firmly rooted in my present life which is exactly where I am supposed to be. And, I am happier and more content than I have ever been. I wish I had a nickel for every time someone I haven’t seen in a while gapes at me and asks, “What has happened to you?” or “You look like a completely different person!” Even my doctor, said something similar at my last appointment. My answer is usually a knowing smile. It would take days to try to explain.
The last time I backslid and began that desperate mourning for Rudy, I quickly got depressed and morose, Marilene said something to me that hit hard and has stuck. She got very firm with me and said, “Katherine, you’ve got to realize that the Past that you are so desperately trying to hang on to is death. It’s over. Let it go.
Every time I would push myself into the past, the grief and sorrow would block me off completely, not only from Rudy, but my family and from Spirit. This is not specific to me. This applies to everyone. When you step out of the moment, retreat, or return to sorrow, fear, disillusionment, bad memories, or whatever, you are effectively blocking yourself off from the higher spiritual planes. You are also hanging a sign around your neck that says “Come and get it!” to opportunistic dark spirit.
Believe me, I know that this is easier said than done. It requires work, faith and skilled guidance.
My family......my wonderful family. They have stood by me through this and have been as non-judgmental as possible for them. It has never been about them believing everything I have told them, but about them understanding that I believe it. They’ve never let me down. Marilene and I have talked extensively about the fact that Rudy is very involved with my entire family.
My husband has been the rock he’s always been. Marilene told me a long time ago that he was placed in my path. I want to say he was a gift, but that’s not quite right. He was the butter for my burn. (Thank you, Rudy.) He listens patiently to me, but usually doesn’t have much to say. One night at dinner, I pushed him. I asked him to tell me what he thought. In his usual calm manner, he smiled. “I am unsure. What I do know is that something profound has happened to you, and it is totally positive.” That’s all he said. It’s as far as he would go. But, you know what, I loved it and accepted it. Rudy thinks the world of my husband. He really likes him and wishes he could communicate with him. Rudy is also very careful to avoid dividing my attention. It’s just my husband and me, now. Our girls are in their own homes. When my husband and I are together, Rudy leaves. He stays when the whole family is here. He says we remind him of a loud, noisy Italian family. We’re loud and noisy, but definitely not Italian.
I need to make something clear. When I write that “Rudy said or says blah blah blah”, please understand that the communication I get from him is mostly feeling. (He does speak directly to Marilene, but that’s for her to tell.) I DO NOT hear a man’s voice in my head. When he drops thoughts into my noggin’, I hear them with my own inner voice just like any other thought. However, I know it’s him because it doesn’t sound like something I would say, the syntax is completely different, or it usually comes straight out of left field. I hate it when he does it when I’m talking to someone, because inevitably, I start stammering thanks to the fact that I’ve lost my own train of thought. I end up sounding like an idiot. You should see the looks I get when I’m out and start laughing at what appears to be nothing.
Marilene and I went out to dinner on the 6th of May to celebrate Rudy’s birthday. We had a wonderful time, as usual. When I got home, I told my husband that we’d had a great dinner. I also told him that Rudy would have been 105 years old. My husband quickly quipped, “Well, he’d be playing the great, great, great grandfather of the Sheik.”
Oh, I wish he could have heard Rudy’s roar of laughter.
RE: RUDY
WOW AGAIN...I know I know I promised to write everyday..anyone else noticed that along with this searing heat everything seems like a struggle in the physical realm...and it is already like that for me...here it goes...
This session with Cindy and Rudy was truly amazing...again in all the years of my work the oneness with someone on the other side has never been like this..the dimensionality of it defies description..he really isn't on "the other side" he is alive and well just not in his last vehicle...that is what he just told me this second..love the way he describes all of this...and he can't wait for me to get to LA..will be there Thursday evening...wow wonder what he has planned this time...he is now making a joke about visiting his "old Vehicle" at Hollywoodforever cemetery...humm this will be an interesting visit.
Back to the blog...the intensity of emotion and expression with which he told Cindy about how he felt about her was so heartfelt..I could feel it through my whole Being...the sincerity of him wanting to protect her from the jaded world he lived in..he is correcting me now..he wasn't jaded but the social world and movie world he lived in was. The women were psychic vampires that wanted to devour him and use him..he realized this too late....then he meets this pure young woman, who wants nothing from him but to be with the real him.
This was such a shock to him that it took him aback...fear set in...unworthiness set in..and then the power of unconditional love healed that fear...it was and is still hard for him to have realized so much at the end of his short time in his last life. He again is speaking of being damaged goods...wishing that he could have had that same purity that he experienced with Cindy then...I believe that he did...I feel that he was and is a pure Soul...that was used and abused..Rudy stop being so hard on yourself....
He also surprised me when at different times in the sessions he showed me another huge side of his life then and now...he was and is a Spiritual Seeker of truth and is really an amazing Intuitive himself...hum that explains it all we are both conduits and merge...more on that later...he also met on a regular basis with a Spiritual group..more on that later..
He wants everyone who is reading this to understand how real this is and how grateful he is and we all are for being able to bring all the fragmentation and unfinished lessons into the NOW we are in PRESENT TIME..join us..it is the only place to really BE..he invites all of you to look at what you arrived with in this life that keeps repeating as a pattern...time to understand that we are born with strengths, weaknesses talents etc and lessons that are a variation of a theme from many incarnations...time to return to your original Divine Blueprint...and heal the karma you have created with your free will...you can heal the past..perfect love which is unconditional love, casts out all fear...
good night to all and sweet dreams M
This session with Cindy and Rudy was truly amazing...again in all the years of my work the oneness with someone on the other side has never been like this..the dimensionality of it defies description..he really isn't on "the other side" he is alive and well just not in his last vehicle...that is what he just told me this second..love the way he describes all of this...and he can't wait for me to get to LA..will be there Thursday evening...wow wonder what he has planned this time...he is now making a joke about visiting his "old Vehicle" at Hollywoodforever cemetery...humm this will be an interesting visit.
Back to the blog...the intensity of emotion and expression with which he told Cindy about how he felt about her was so heartfelt..I could feel it through my whole Being...the sincerity of him wanting to protect her from the jaded world he lived in..he is correcting me now..he wasn't jaded but the social world and movie world he lived in was. The women were psychic vampires that wanted to devour him and use him..he realized this too late....then he meets this pure young woman, who wants nothing from him but to be with the real him.
This was such a shock to him that it took him aback...fear set in...unworthiness set in..and then the power of unconditional love healed that fear...it was and is still hard for him to have realized so much at the end of his short time in his last life. He again is speaking of being damaged goods...wishing that he could have had that same purity that he experienced with Cindy then...I believe that he did...I feel that he was and is a pure Soul...that was used and abused..Rudy stop being so hard on yourself....
He also surprised me when at different times in the sessions he showed me another huge side of his life then and now...he was and is a Spiritual Seeker of truth and is really an amazing Intuitive himself...hum that explains it all we are both conduits and merge...more on that later...he also met on a regular basis with a Spiritual group..more on that later..
He wants everyone who is reading this to understand how real this is and how grateful he is and we all are for being able to bring all the fragmentation and unfinished lessons into the NOW we are in PRESENT TIME..join us..it is the only place to really BE..he invites all of you to look at what you arrived with in this life that keeps repeating as a pattern...time to understand that we are born with strengths, weaknesses talents etc and lessons that are a variation of a theme from many incarnations...time to return to your original Divine Blueprint...and heal the karma you have created with your free will...you can heal the past..perfect love which is unconditional love, casts out all fear...
good night to all and sweet dreams M
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Rudy
On the 6th of May 1895 in Castellaneta, Italy, Rodolfo, Pietro, Filiberto, Raphaele Guglielmi reentered this world as a mortal. His stay was tragically short, yet in that brief span of time he was able to reach so many people around the world. At that time his medium was film.
He continues to be driven to reach out to people which is why I was led to Marilene and why you are reading this blog. Even during his short stay on this earth, Rudy was powerfully psychic and spiritual. He was shy, very compassionate, and extremely intelligent. He appeared very serious in his demeanor, but he had a wicked sense of humor. He is adamant in his desire to get people to see and understand “the truth”. There will be much more about this later on, now, it’s time to get back to the story.
My third in-person session with Marilene didn’t occur until July 29, 2008. She was in New Jersey working with a family. We had two telephone sessions during that time, unfortunately they couldn’t be taped. Throughout the whole process up till then, I was still dealing with the ungodly feelings of grief. As Marilene helped me to dig deeper, it became more and more evident where it was coming from. During the time span she’d mentioned, June 11 – 23, 1926, I was with Rudy and was hopelessly in love with him.
Finally, Marilene returned and we were able to meet face to face.
Begin tape.........
Marilene, I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster!
“I can imagine. That’s what happens when you activate all these things. It’s like setting off fireworks. You don’t have a clue where they were or where they’re going to pop.”
“Did you get the feeling that........Pola Negri on the funeral train. (Okay, I’m going to take a minute here and tell you that I will have very little to say about Pola Negri, mainly because, I cannot retain any form of rationality when it comes to her. Marilene can explain.)
“That’s what he’s trying to tell me. His life seemed to be star crossed love. He found all these wrong women. This is what he’s saying about you. He found you, but you were so young. He’s saying it’s too bad you weren’t the same age.”
(She pauses)...... “ ‘Because you, unfortunately, my dear,’ he says.” ( Marilene gets a pained expression on her face and sighs.) “Oh, that’s really heavy. Woo. Okay that’s what I’ll tell her if that’s what you want me to tell her.... “ ‘You unfortunately, my dear, received damaged goods.’ ”
“Oh, that’s so sad! Rudy, Rudy, Rudy. You represented everything he wanted. (Marilene closes her eyes and is listening) He’s answering a question that you may have asked, of why only those days?” (I had asked myself that very question a couple of days previously)
(Deep down, I knew the answer.) He sent me away, didn’t he?
“Yes, now he’s going to tell you why, which is why it’s so horrible. This is what he thought. He’s damaged goods, you’re so young(19) and he knew there would be a big scandal. he didn’t want you to be hurt by his life.......Okay, there’s another thing. He keeps calling you ‘my dear, my dear’ Uh, he doesn’t ever want you to think that you weren’t right or you weren’t enough or that you did something wrong. ‘All you could ever have done wrong was to be too perfect.’ .....Oh, my God, that’s romantic!”
(By this time, I was unable to speak for a few minutes.)
“Did he scar himself as a child?”
Yes, he cut himself with his father’s razor when he was five. The scar is on his right cheek.
“Once he sent you away, he was never the same. He went into a decline. That’s what he’s showing me. You both did......I get the feeling there was a plan, some kind of spiritual plan for the two of you to come back together. Something happened, that’s what he’s frustrated about.”
I don’t know why I came back. All I do know is that when I did, I brought all that grief with me. It isn’t just that he died, but that my hopes and dreams were within my reach. Just when it seemed they were in my grasp, it was all ripped away. I lost him, I lost everything. How could I know that the day I left him, June 23rd, he would be dead in exactly two months.(August 23, 1926)
“Yes you did, girl, and you have to finish it.......It’s like you’re stuck in about five different dimensional places and that’s never good. The key thing to work on is being as present as you can be and be right in the moment......You have to be in your life and present, and then he can be aligned with you and you’re going to have very strong communication with him.” ......End tape
I have spent the last two years collecting anything and everything I could get my hands on relating to Rudy. I found a copy of his manager’s memoirs about Rudy, a copy of the small book of poems Rudy wrote, among other things. Thank God for rare book dealers!
After the session with Marilene, I kept thinking about what she’d told me. I struggled with the doubts that kept creeping into my thoughts. Believe me, they could get vicious. ( I’m sure Marilene will address the subject of fear, but let me say something I have learned from personal experience. Fear is the darkest of all the forces. It comes in many disguises with many different sets of shackles to immobilize us and keep us prisoners: terror, trepidation, worry, nervousness, doubt, shame, disgust, intolerance, ignorance, anger, hatred.....the list seems endless. Think of a time when you were able to look fear in the face and say, “no, I will not allow you to spoil this,” and you pushed through the fear to accomplish something. We’ve all had these moments in our lives. Think of how you felt, how you soared unfettered! This is what Rudy and other spirits want to show and teach us....how to throw off the shackles and soar.)
(I was speaking of the doubts that kept creeping back into my mind.) One day I sat down and picked up the memoirs written by Rudy’s manager. I turned to the back and was reading about how successful the New York premiere of “The Son of the Sheik” had been. That was the reason Rudy was in NY in August 1926 when he died. Everyone was ecstatic about the film’s reception.
Ullman wrote, “Strange to say, Rudy seemed rather quiet after his ovation at the Mark Strand, whereas the rest of us were very much excited...........Rudy’s quiet mood continued, so much so that we fell into a most serious conversation.......He talked to me of marriage. He asked me if I thought it would ever be wise for him to marry a girl who was not in pictures.”
I was struck dumb. “A girl who was not in pictures?” I reread it, then called Marilene to read it to her. She reacted exactly the way I did. Hopefully she will give you her perspective. For me, it was like someone opened a door.
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